I don't want a bridal shower...is that bad?

I'm getting married next year. I've always wanted a wedding, but never felt the need for a bridal shower. I didn't think it was a big deal, so I called my mom, who lives a few states away, and mentioned that I wasn't interested in having a bridal shower. I thought she would be fine with it, but she exclaimed that her friends were already talking about having one for me (which I don't understand, I don't really know most of her friends) and that I should have one, etc. We ended the conversation without a decision. Then, this weekend, I saw my parents for a family event. I told my mom again that I didn't want a shower, and she now said I should have two, one thrown by her friends and another thrown by other friends and family. She said that it's about letting people that love me do something nice for me. I'm not really sure why I don't want a shower, I have no problem with gifts but I don't like being fussed over and I don't like this idea that my wedding is about pleasing other people. I figured my wedding is the one time in my life where it gets to be about what I (and my fiance) want. My mom finally conceded to not throw me any showers but now I'm plagued with guilt. My mom is making me a beautiful wedding so I should do something for her, but the thought of having a bridal shower fills me with anxiety. I don't know what to do!